Love That I Never Knew I had

Yesterday my dog (or best friend) started vomiting excessively at noon. He didn't stop all night and we brought him to the vet first thing this morning. He has acute kidney failure. He'll be ok I hope. The vet is keeping him for a few days. 

I miss him terribly. He's my best friend. Partner in crime. Traveling companion. Sunrise catcher. He makes me appreciate the stars at night and the breeze between the trees. He's so excited every time I get home, never shows pain, and is the best snuggler I've ever met. 

I didn't know I could possibly love someone or something this much. I'm so devastated. I know he'll be ok, but it's a significant sign to appreciate the wonderful things in life. 

You have so many positives in life. I have so many positives in life. Yes, there are shitty things, and thing I want to be better, but there are so many amazing things that I have. That you have. Give an extra hug, an extra smile. It's ok to not diligently save money, to mess up, to make a mess, to forget something. I get SO ANGRY with myself sometimes. But I would give anything right now for Jackson to be home with me. Anything. 

Send some love. Give a hug. Meditate. Smile. Close your eyes and take a deep breath. You already have everything you need.